Friday, July 10th, 2009
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6:04 pm - it's been two years -- what a strange feeling...
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I haven't posted here in two years. Most likely for the best, I think. And everything has changed. Okay, maybe not everything. But darn near... our family moved to another town, I am a teacher, still working on my master's, still learning so very much that I never imagined, still making mistakes and failing all the time, but still getting back up.
current mood:  contemplative
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Monday, May 28th, 2007
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11:37 pm - it's hot tonight
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But really, I love the warm weather. I've needed it so much. What a terrible winter it was, followed by a dark and blighted spring. I'm still inclined to gash my heart on broken glass, but even if the blood runs more freely in the heat, somehow the hurt is less . . .
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Tuesday, February 20th, 2007
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8:15 pm - things that hurt
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Me being stupid. Gashing myself on broken glass. Homework in a class I don't love. My debt load. The reality that I don't actually matter to anyone.
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Wednesday, December 27th, 2006
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10:08 pm - a hard time, and cold
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Wednesday, April 5th, 2006
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7:01 pm - I suck at posting
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But technically that's fine, since *nobody* reads this.
Things are . . . better. Graduation, after these many many years, looks like it will actually happen. I have some good things to look forward to.
But this is still not really the life I thought I'd have.
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Thursday, February 9th, 2006
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10:56 pm - what has happened
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Today is my oldest son's birthday. Sam is 20 today. Twenty. I have a 20-year-old son. That just seems . . . odd. I am so blessed to have him, and my three other beautiful children. How empty would my life be without them.
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Sunday, February 5th, 2006
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4:03 pm - a bad feeling
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I hurt. I'm sad, immersed in the feeling of having done something foolish. So I will stop. Dumb. Silent. Unloved and unloving. Ore at the bottom of the mine.
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Sunday, January 15th, 2006
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12:47 am - a new year's resolution
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Maybe it seems a little late to be making a new year's resolution, but I say not. It's still the beginning of the 2006, there's still time to hope things will be better this year. Or that I will be better this year. One can hope. So. What is my resolution, my re-solution?
To stop complaining.
I'm so very new to all of this livejournal stuff. It will be pretty boring to look at, no doubt. And I can't promise it will ever get better. But honestly, this journal is only for me. It's a place to write where I won't hurt anyone else . . .
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